". . . humans are always looking for reasons to justify their cruelty, aren't they?" Among other things.
[ glancing at him.... he's seen bitter akira before and it hurts his heart. ]
Does kind of go against this whole working together thing if that's his attitude, but -- you're right. The real question is, how are we meant to come back from this?
. . . something 45 said brought out a part of me that I don't think about much anymore.
[he is no longer a bitter nihilist but sometimes! that part of him comes out. he doesn't linger on that topic long, moving along with the change in conversation with a shake of his head]
[ah. . . he looks at the hand on his shoulder, then back up at Phoenix. for a moment a pained look crosses his expression, and he opens his mouth to say something-- before closing it again]
You're always there for me. . . [he mutters, voice quiet] . . . even when I can't-- even when I can't--
[he]
[cuts himself off and breathes out sharply]
If we move Winter onto Shadows' team, or Shadows and Heart onto Winter's team, then this upcoming week there will be only one team left standing.
[ phoenix looks straight into his eyes with a sad, knowing smile. he speaks very deliberately, making eye contact ]
You're the best of us, Akira. You always have been. And I know how hard you've been working... it'll be over soon. Just don't lose hope.
[ ... ]
... Theoretically, yeah. I think there's probably something big waiting for us at the end -- snake-like, maybe. But as long as we're united... really, united, I think we'll be fine.
[. . . maybe. it's hard to tell? he ducks his head and rubs at his one good eye with the back of his hand as he sucks in a sharp breath, something tight curling in his chest]
[ he really wants to do some hugging but he is still a gross burnt corpse. he's still doing his best to make eye contact, and speaking very deliberately ]
[and is it really better for them to vote for someone who didn't do anything wrong? is it. . . really fair that Ookurikara is going to suffer for their inability to come together as one. . .?]
We are, yes. Can't say I made an especially good vote, but... honestly, I don't think there's a good way to vote, regardless of "guilt" or "innocence".
[ just kinda... strokes at akira's hair a little, but not too much. it's clumsy, with all the bandages, but. ]
We're not playing for the trial, anyway. We're playing for the game.
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[what are you getting at hobodad]
And-- sorry, it's not everyone, it's just-- [a. frustrated noise] There's no good excuse for us fucking up that badly.
No good excuse to put in a vote for someone who didn't volunteer, even if he is a jerk.
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[ glancing at him.... he's seen bitter akira before and it hurts his heart. ]
Does kind of go against this whole working together thing if that's his attitude, but -- you're right. The real question is, how are we meant to come back from this?
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[. . .]
. . . something 45 said brought out a part of me that I don't think about much anymore.
[he is no longer a bitter nihilist but sometimes! that part of him comes out. he doesn't linger on that topic long, moving along with the change in conversation with a shake of his head]
We keep moving forward, I guess.
We're still going to win, right?
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.... You sounded a bit like me, you know. I didn't like it.
[ hmmmm ]
We will, yeah. There's no question. But we have to repair that bridge, I think... somehow.
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You're always there for me. . . [he mutters, voice quiet] . . . even when I can't-- even when I can't--
[he]
[cuts himself off and breathes out sharply]
If we move Winter onto Shadows' team, or Shadows and Heart onto Winter's team, then this upcoming week there will be only one team left standing.
That'd be the end of the game. Right?
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You're the best of us, Akira. You always have been. And I know how hard you've been working... it'll be over soon. Just don't lose hope.
[ ... ]
... Theoretically, yeah. I think there's probably something big waiting for us at the end -- snake-like, maybe. But as long as we're united... really, united, I think we'll be fine.
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[TEARING UP]
[SLIGHTLY???]
[. . . maybe. it's hard to tell? he ducks his head and rubs at his one good eye with the back of his hand as he sucks in a sharp breath, something tight curling in his chest]
I'm not. I'm not. I'm fucking-- I'm not.
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[ he really wants to do some hugging but he is still a gross burnt corpse. he's still doing his best to make eye contact, and speaking very deliberately ]
Nothing will change that, do you understand?
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[Akira kind of]
[pitches forward to rest his forehead against Phoenix's shoulder. it's a gentle touch, so as not to aggravate his burns]
[he]
[needs a moment]
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.... I wish I could help more. I'm sorry.
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[. . .]
You-- didn't bring up Taako's knife either.
[. . . aha]
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I didn't, no. To be honest.... I'm not interested in getting "justice". These trials are a farce.
[ and he's tired of it. ]
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They've never been about justice.
But we're still required to vote. No matter what.
[and is it really better for them to vote for someone who didn't do anything wrong? is it. . . really fair that Ookurikara is going to suffer for their inability to come together as one. . .?]
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[ just kinda... strokes at akira's hair a little, but not too much. it's clumsy, with all the bandages, but. ]
We're not playing for the trial, anyway. We're playing for the game.
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[sure does feel bad for Akira, anyway!!]
Not that. . . the rest of us are completely innocent either, considering our votes, but--
[aaaah he doesn't]
[know how to explain it]